The understanding of reality...

Wow! I can't believe that its been over a year since I last posted. Crazy! Life really goes by so fast the older you get. So much has changed I don't even know where to start. I miss the sun tremendously my goodness. I didn't think I would miss it this much, but oh boy! I miss it like an old man misses he's wife when she's gone for good. The upside to that is that I know in the future. I will once again live in paradise. That is a promise to myself expect for this time. I will be a business women and not a girl that was so carefree, and hated to work. All I used to think about before was how I was not going to be part of corporate society and get sucked into brands, tv and 8 - 5 job. I loved what I stood for, and I fell in love with such an amazing man in the process. He inspired me and opened my eyes. To follow a passion something that I love doing. Keeping me grounded all the time. I was scared for he's life because he was a police federally. I dealt with the fear of him not coming home because he's life was on the line everyday he left that front door. After much planning we decided to move to the states. He's first time in the USA. It was not easy a lot of fighting and I mean a lot of fighting happened. He changed everything for me. I expected him to smile, love it, and appreciate me. How selfish of me. A moment of realization came to me when he went back once we decide we needed a break. I realized I needed to be patient, and much more understanding with him this was not only a different country culture, and language, but as well as starting over. He had lived a very comfortable lifestyle, and was respected everywhere he went. To transition from that to general labor. He is so realistic with all of our conversation sometimes I question he's age. He never hides from fear or hard times. He faces them straight on, and I'm there to assist him in pushing thru.  Now its different we talk all the time. I love him for not changing who he is, and dressing like a fifty year old mountain hiker, and  for calling me out when I'm out of line. We have the same dreams. We talk about them constantly. I love it that he doesn't want to change me either. Life is about loving yourself and loving those around you, being surround by positive people that will push you to find your dreams and helping you make them a reality.